After we made love, he said, "You know, you're much more open to all this and turned on than you were a few weeks ago. Your body is much more receptive, and I'm wondering just how far you'll take your taste for pain as part of pleasure. This is a reason to not rush, and to savor every moment, and take it little slow, because you will find a place where you won't want to go any farther."
A good comment, but what it made me think about is how differently I am starting to think about things. Some fantasies I find amazingly erotic that are so new from anything in my past:
- Z's fingers in my mouth, stretched wide, my legs open for him
- Being tied up and whipped, then used by Z
- Satisfying a dominant and his slave wife; being the submissive to the slave
- Bringing two men back to my place and having sex with both of them
All of a sudden, it's dawned on me that being with a couple is different..and it could be really hot.
Truthfully, I find these fantasies a little scary--it's reassuring that I've been with R for six weeks and we haven't done many of the things we've talked about--it reminds me that I have no need to act on any of these fantasies, ever.
Of course, what really scares, though, is that someday I might want to, just like I used to fantasize about getting spanked and having my nipples pulled and now it's part of what R and I do.
That's why this blog..I need a safe place to write about this new erotic journey.
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